You know me better than I do myself by NorahCarlos, literature
Literature
You know me better than I do myself
you think I'm just a bit broken
you think I just need something
I've never had before
maybe something to decode
people's thoughts
you say I just need to see
the sunshine is here, I know, love, but it's killing me
you think I just don't
try enough
maybe you're right
but I'll write this down to you
to tell you how much I care
it's just a bit difficult for me to say what I'd like to say
but instead I'll write something nice for you
perhaps you'd understand
I wish you would
you still wonder why I'm not
in politics with my views
well love, I hate the lies they sew
even more than you
believe me
I might as well say I love you
b
wait
love
you forgot to give me your soul
oh wait
just wait
I have ways of capturing things that belong to me
the way you were walking your line
was screaming for help, it was no lie
you needed me, never forget, you need me
along the road, past all you've known
to recover what you might have still owned
to get it back you needed me, and you still do
wait
love
you forgot to give me your soul
oh wait
just wait
I have ways of capturing things that belong to me
I will not be forgotten, it won't happen again
I'll come for you so you'll always remember
I had you for once, why did you run
the smiles, the laughter, it cannot be r
she had never felt as warm as she did that day
when ahe realized she was officially five days late
and within a month her belly had quite grown
she explained to her husband, and his mind was blown
so they started planning, all the usual money-burning
a bed, toys and light blue walls with ducks kissing on them
the time became closer, he started worrying
the bottle was held vertically, the liquids were running
she became stressed and tried talking to him
but he was too gone, too immersed to listen
and as they visited the doctors more frequently
they started feeling like their lives stood still
finally came the day they had waited fo
my lids are loose
my head is separate
just like my heart
it pounded off my chest
the feeling is there
the sensation of someone else
in this room
watching by the door
the weakest thread
the most fragile linkage
between me and the world
I should be physically in
but it's not sure anymore
since I lost the sense
of my limbs
and I keep falling
to the void
and I keep tumbling
in front of the memories
I thought I lost
you were there
as a shape without color
no temper, no voice
no thoughts, no choice
I tried to contact you
but you seemed so intact
I didn't dare to shout
and I let you go
with a doubt
and I keep falling
to
because we don't have a future
and enjoying this moment feels so fake
yesterday has passed away
our minds remind us "it's for your sake"
time goes on it's a train and a plane
because on land it will run over you
and on air it will crash your clouds
and there is nothing you can do
massive weights pull over my head
the universe starts collapsing again
I wish I knew the magic words
but they overwrote my mind with this hell
I know what I'll have to do
even though I don't want to
it's just, life is, as they say
I don't feel, I won't feel good
I need the flames, the burn
to make it be okay
it's simple, but I want it complicated
I
aurinko laskee
ehkä jopa noustakseen uudelleen
olen väsynyt
päivän juossut
itkenyt, huutanut ja hiljentynyt
osaan silti hymyillä
kivun kävin läpi
huusin jumalaa, johtajaa, avuntuojaa
mutta yksin jäin
olen turtunut
tänne lämpimään syleilyyn ajatuksen
jonka mukaan olen rauhassa
tänään minä kyllästyin
kiljumaan mielipidettäni maailmasta
annoin olla
ja pois liu'uin
so today my mom fell down on her knees
crying and praying she looks a bit ill
but she won't let me touch her, not even look at
she's just whispering: "God, let him get back"
after all she said that she will explain
and we took the road to a very old grave
she said: "This is your grandparents, died in an accident
and if we don't follow the rule we might end up the same"
keep your head up the water
worthless to say it's better
tomorrow is far and yesterday's gone
today, this moment is all that you've got
so make it count
live like there's no one else around
and next we got to the police station
there were men and women, hurrying